Christmas.

Christmas. "The happiest day of the year." Right? I actually did just read a status on facebook that inspired a post, but it's not bad. It's hilarious.

"The holidays always make me want to deck something... but it sure aint the halls!"

Haha. Yes, that about sums it up. I don't know.  Maybe its the fact that its December 22nd in Michigan and we don't have any snow. Maybe its the fact that everyone is broke and dreading Christmas. Maybe its that you just have to run into the store for one little thing, but you spend a half hour looking for a parking spot, then have to shove through tons of people to get where you need to go and then you can't even find what you need because apparantly everybody else wanted that exact same thing. Those could be the reasons why I'm not really feeling the Christmas spirit this year.

Or maybe because I have the same dilemma every year. I have 3 different places to be on Christmas Eve. I have to be in Otsego by 2, Gun Lake by 5, and Battle Creek by 6. How I'm going to pull that off, I have no idea. Running around like crazy, probably doing more driving than celebrating. And then comes Christmas Day, where I do nothing. Backwards? I dont know. That's just how it is.

Or if you want the truth, I think its because my husband isn't home to celebrate the holidays with me. Last Christmas, we were living in our apartment in North Carolina and we went out and bought our first tree. The tree is hardly taller than I am, and so very skinny. Pathetic looking actually. But that's besides the point. The point is we got to decorate it together, and it was ours. We got to wrap and exchange presents, and bake cookies, and we were lucky enough to come home and visit our families for 2 days. I loved Christmas last year. This year, I think I'm just feeling anti-Christmas because I think I feel guilty celebrating something without him.

Out of the 4 Christmases we have been together, we have only spent 2 of them physically together. So the ones spent apart are hard. I have been to more of Corey's family events by myself than actually with him. But hopefully this will be the last one we have to be separated for. We are 7,000 miles away from each other on Christmas and it sucks. But that's just life :)